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Week 22A – Falling behind and guilt

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I have achieved one thing on my DMP, and meanwhile, all the rest of MKMMA homeworks is falling behind! Instead of reading Og 3 times a day, I read it only once, no more sits, no more hanging out to read the others’ blogs and put comments in the Alliance… I don’t read my DMP out loud or read the BPB anymore. I don’t have much time flashing my cards, but I know them by now and the adaptation process has worked on those cards and the DMP already, so I don’t feel like the same excitement as at the beginning. I don’t look at shapes or listen to my recording anymore. Do I feel guilt? A little bit, but not really.

On the other hand, I have kept to my 3 gratitudes and journaling the moment of happy time daily and focusing on kindnesses and doing the Franklin Makeover exercice. Trying to be consciously kind and shifting my attention where I want. Also, I have kept on with the service on the service card. And most important, I have changed all my bad habits and wake up very happy in the morning and go to bed very happy at night. The guy in the gal is very happy, definitely.

I do my best every day. I put my attention where I want and improve myself and my quality of life dramatically. It’s hard work but happy work. Meaningful and rewarding. The time spent reflecting is not wasted, it is earned. I love the feeling. But honestly, I am not a great thinker. I am more in the action. I have this pile of book that I would like to read, but they still stay there… And the list of things to do for MKMMA takes too much time in the schedule. Just making dates with my family member is enough to take all my day. I really have to accept that. Just tending to my primary needs and those of my loved ones, and the day is gone! Everyday, it’s the struggle to accomplish my plan of action.

So I was thinking that maybe I should stop struggling and take it easy. Since then, I have been falling behind a few items on the list, but I still work hard towards my goals!

 

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  1. I love your honesty and I see some similarities in my own experience. Thank you very much for sharing in this clarity.

  2. Sweet Hoang-Mai…
    I feel so honored to have read much of your blog…. It’s beautiful… like you!
    I love it that you SEE!! You’re doing perfectly… for you… right now!
    And really… I bet you’ve memorized the BPB… it’s already IN YOU… Pick it up occasionally and look at it… The long list of homework in the workbook is to remind you of things that will help YOU… tools for you.. not to cause you to feel a heavy weight. You’ve clearly had the discipline to do the work to start the momentum to move your life in your direction… Now please simply love yourself. You are amazing! 🙂 Keep doing YOUR work… LOVE.

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